Held
I p icked up a book by Abbey Wedgeworth called Held:31 Biblical Reflections on God's Comfort and Care in the Sorrow of Miscarriage. In the first few paragraphs of the first chapter she put into words my feelings so clearly I couldn't have said it better. " I've never been this close to death. It's literally inside of me. Where life should be." ..."Apart from dying ourselves, I'm not sure it's possible to experience death more persoanlly than to have it occur within us. When the experience of death is that personal, trite religious phrases and sympathy-card expressions become more difficult to utter and even more difficult to accept." How true this is and I had to have someone else state it for me to understand this is exactly how I feel. I have had two lives begin and end inside of my body and it is extremely difficult for me to wrap my head around that. It is also difficult for me to accept that 'it is part of God's plan'. I